lmfao.
who wants to learn the boogie board con me? haha
February 2010
The Greatest Relationships
The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and changed your every view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. The ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.
The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that God exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. The ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.
The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.
The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank her for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love her, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing her. The ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.
Play
“Thinking of you is easy- I do it everyday.
Missing you is the heartache- that never goes away.”
hah, idk. i liked it.
seriously.
one of the best scenes in that show. hahaha xD
so i can't sleep. (part 1)
so i was looking around my room, not really cleaning it out or anything and came across a yellow letter. well it wasn’t really a letter, but a list. it had no names at all, but just ranted about people, all of which are unnamed. the only thing that went along with the little rants was a number. i don’t know who wrote it, but i do have an idea of who it was, only because my memory has a weird way of working, and i thought it was kind of cool. there was a lot of “confession” type stuff being said in it, and having it being completely anonymous, i thought it would be cool to try it. well obviously my list is going to be different in the sense that anyone who reads it, knows that its me who’s writing. but i’m still going to keep it anonymous in the sense that i’m not going to put out any names, and try to be as unspecific as possible so that people can’t even begin to get hints about who i’m talking about. and i’m doing this simply because i have a lot on my mind, and a lot to say.
1- we really have been through a lot together in the past, we were really like brothers, but then there was a time when we really hated each other. it got so bad to the point that we were about to have this huge fight and all that crap but i’m glad that it didn’t go through. we started hanging out again, just casually, nothing like before. but i guess what i’m trying to say is that i’m glad that we’re cool again nd that we can hangout without having anything be awkward between us.
2- it never really occurred to me how much you really meant to me. i mean, we only met once, nd even at that time we really didn’t talk. i mean, we left the night not even knowing each others names. but then i found out yer name, found you on myspace, nd we started to talk on aim. it was cool nd all cause we really got to know each other, nd actually became pretty close. but things happened, we lost touch, nd suddenly that was it. i don’t even remember what happened, but we just stopped talking. i wish i could go back nd start over with you, cause you were someone i really started to care about nd it would’ve been cool to get to know you better.
3- okay, so there was actually a time when i thought that i liked you, nd i sorta did, but then not really.. if that makes any sense at all. we would always hang out together cause we lived closest to each other when it came to the group of friends we hung out with. its funny how so much can change after senior year, cause we don’t even talk anymore. we used to be “best friends” but then lost touch. there wasn’t even any drama or anything.. idk, i see you on most sundays now, but don’t know what to say nd i guess i just wanted to say that you helped me get through a lot in high school, nd i’m really glad that you were there for me.
4- you were my best friend. someone i really cared about. you helped me gain a sense of confidence, especially when it came to dealing with my emotions nd shit. i mean, we always seemed to be going through the same thing when it came to our relationship status nd how things were going in our love lives so it was cool to have someone there to talk to about that kind of thing, especially when they can relate. thanks for being there for me, nd i honestly really miss you. i see your sister at school a lot nd i guess its kinda weird, cause i used to only see her once in awhile, but now its you that i don’t see anymore. we should really hang out sometime nd catch up with everything thats been going on.
5- you were like a brother to me. we went through all the junior high drama together nd always stuck by one another. always had each others back. but now i don’t even know you. i mean we see each other at school nd we act all cool nd shit like that. but really, i don’t even know you anymore. you’ve changed so much from the person i used to know you as, nd i’m not trying to say that i haven’t changed at all. you gotta stop nd realize who yer real friends are man, nd i hope yer okay with everything, i really do, cause i don’t wanna see someone i considered my brother screw up his life.
6- dude, seriously.. what the fuck.. i don’t know what happened to be honest. maybe it was because you didn’t have any of us with you in junior high anymore, or you just found yer own crew. but i gotta say man, you look fucked up right now, nd you gotta stop disrespecting yer mom like you used to. i can tell that things aren’t even getting better with that, cause you don’t even look like the little kid i used to call my brother anymore. honestly you look tore up nd straight poser right now nd i hope you don’t get yer ass beat for trying to be something you aren’t.
7- everything i’ve been though, you have always been there. straight up, everything. from having my parents yell at me for no reason, for when i have my crazy mental breakdowns or even when my brother comes at me with a knife. you have always been there for me, nd i love you to death for it. i mean sure, we’ve definitely had our own ups and downs, but no matter how bad it got, we always made up. i know for a fact that i can rely on you in the future, nd you should know that you can always rely on me too.
8- i’ve known you for awhile nd i definitely know you better now. i can’t really explain in words about what i feel about you, but i want you to know that i’m gonna always be there for you. even if worst comes to worst nd we stop talking to each other. i want you to know that i will be there whenever you need someone to talk to. you just really have to have more confidence in yourself. your a good person nd you will be rewarded for everything you’ve done. i know, cause you’ve done a hell of a job with me. you’ve helped me in so many ways, i can’t even begin to tell you in this entry. be who you are nd be strong when times get tough. don’t even let anyone tear you down, cause yer better than that.
9- your probably one of the people, if not the one person i miss the most right now. i mean, i’m not even going to bullshit this one. i don’t know where i’d be if it weren’t for you. yeh sure, maybe i would be in a better place socially, only cause of everything that has happened in the past. but i’m just going to keep this short nd simple. i love you, nd always have.
10- elementary school, junior high school, high school, nd even the beginning of college. i know your someone who i’ll be able to depend on. nd i’m sorry that this is really short, but i just wanted to let you know that.. like with everyone else on this list, we have had our ups and downs. you were a big part of my life, nd helped me through a lot. nd i want you to know that for everything you’ve done for me. i really appreciate it.
okay so that’s really if for now, only because i’m getting pretty tired heh. i mean i would continue, cause i really do have a lot to say about the people in my life, nd the people who have made an impact in my life. if you do read this nd think you can guess who i’m talking about, go ahead nd guess, just knowing that i’m not going to admit to a right answer hah. i will continue this sometime, maybe in my next post, so yeh. keep it real.
-late.
yawp.
i guess that’s why i go by shaione.
